lead me around
nurse my broken wing
with all the promises
you can never honor
I just dont care enough
to react to vain attempts
sent only to perpetuate
one's selfish little world
you wont see what ive become
youll wait and watch and still
youre only let down
a violent reaction
struggling only to keep myself alive
now here I stand
for nothing no one at all
I lead you down

an overwhelming understanding
of chaos brings you to your knees
impurities make me the way that I am
the dirt in my veins
the games on my thoughts
the stains on your face
they break it apart
motherfucking
pushing the envelope
life sets me off
pushing the envelope
hate gets me off
motherfucking
pushing the envelope
gets me off
pushing the envelope
your face it sets me off

I can still watch those eyes
crawling over her dress until
I could show you everything
but I dont have to hear the words
cause I already feel your thoughts
so it comes as no surprise
that all the intent is real
all the suspects are right
if we stop
it all falls down
cover my eyes
obey my ignorance
to purify you
Ill only watch you rot
without malicious intent
your doubt resembles someone else

follow me now and I will drown you
fill you full of reason
no windows Ill take you
to the dirty place that I love
slipping on messes
you made when I hit you
makes me more exicitable
Ill never get caught [2x]
pull it tight Ill see right through it
Ill never get caught
cradle the difference in front of your fist
force it down to bring it back up
make them listen one more time

no sense of self
to balance it off
preconceived notions of something
everyones gone
will I show up
with all that I have to give
would you consider it a gift
but that
doesnt matter anyway
liar youre such a
on your hands and knees
picking up the broken pieces
liar youre such a
on your hands and knees
afraid to turn my head
for fear of whats behind me
I swear Ive seen you before
but that

the surface is so cold and worthless
all the things that I have still come from there
so paint your windows in front of my face
when you know damn well theres
no one behind them
I wish your body was not so warm to me
just so you know
all it was was something beautiful
when tides and dreams dont seem so tall at all
its me against the world still Im losing ground

stink filled spasms
deep in a colostomy bag
I like being trapped inside
the plastics wearing out
red and perfect her legs
spread out in front of me
theyre so open they make me sweat
its my lubrication
recent findings say
circumcise the abstinent
make it hard for them to breathe
I like to make you lie
dropped and so ill
steeped in my mysogeny
my shaking hands are in the skin

burn the bed
consummated
rest the head
it just holds us back now
still she keeps on looking
of course [2x]
nows theres nothing I hate as much
wet the lips
shut your pretty mouth
use the kiss
tommorrow fails to exist
still she keeps on looking
of course [2x]
now theres nothing I
it all surfaces in this light
words under my breath
taking my time
breaking your smile
feed the wish
let it flourish

walk with an impure mind
revelations unkind
abject dental of the flesh I feel
endure and make my mind
its never time to start
believing everything will all work out
bloody knuckles
empty cavity
swift disposal
empty cavity
weve blinded ourselves sick
to create room for it
never arriving when its needed most
anticipation burns
unquenchable we learn
left holding nothing but the will to live

the trait that is still
left on the killing floor for you
that smile as he still
itches for killing more of you
the taste as he still
catches me lasting to it
the recoil they still
dream of that lasting spit
are you
shutdown in it
shut my eyes only once
brought me back up for nothing
yet it always seems like
I live in the shit
I make it bleed
I wont ever quit
I cause the need
lying in my bed

I know this much
I cant stand me
when I become him
I know this much
I dont feel free
when Im repentant
tell him this much
you dont want him
due to extra skin
tell him this much
you forsake him
due to pretension
now we have everything we need
to come up to where youre pristine
we believe
tell him this much
you cant withstand
taking it upright
tell him this much
you felt dirty
because it was tight

My throat is dry when I
(stain it)
keep the hate alive
(abuse it)
your lips are tight when I
(to keep it from)
cover them with mine
(running you)
this is a sickness
(need it)
you cannot conceive
(mistreat it)
it takes the quiet
(its all thats left)
to not exceed
(breathe in, bleed out)
where is your comfort now
its on the way out
where are your reasons now
theyre all worn out

pathetic sympathies
left for the bloody at heart
everything fades to shit
evertyhing tears me apart
caustic insecurities
surface above the witheld
every time I need
everything I want
aesthetic disguises
underlying doubts
my direction dies
everythings right up in your face
everythings right up in front
push me against the wall
but still you cant make me
fall
you cant make me
fall

Ive seen it turn from white to red
Ive heard you talk about how
you bleed and it doesnt mean shit
until I see some action a hint of
rose and a mountain of garbage
leaves me for dead and nothing drags me from
breaking myself
breaking myself to try to keep everyone
from walking over me
smell the burning wreckage of even you
all of your perfection lets get inside
the bag turn it 180 degrees

Im above everything else
saved the ones that shouldnt be
hold on to them all so youll
find yourself away from me
our lost faith strung out on a line
my most empathetic dreams of you
the sorry excuses on which we dine
when all my fears tell me its true
borrowed dreams of some imagined future
all wrapped up inside this borrowed hope
dont manipulate the most
beautiful thing youll ever know

freedom is everything
resolve impossible
you prayed for rain
ignoring the flood
you took me with you
to heaven
back again
bleed to remember
that everything ends
blind and looking forward
I can see the shapes
but cant make out the faces
still they come in close
excuse this ugly shell my
gaping holes drip pride
a systematic shutdown
of diminishing returns
NOTHING GETS EASIER GETS! [2X]