When you start to take a look within
Do you feel at ease with what you see
Do you think you can have peace of mind
And have self belief or be satisfied

Do you think you even like yourself
Or really think you could be someone else
Is there something that you'd rather be
Never thought you'd be, had the chance to see

All my life I've run away
All my life I've tried to hide away

I get in from work at 2am
and sit down with a beer
Turn on late night tv
and then I wonder why I'm here
It's meaningless and trivial
and it washes over me
And once again I wonder
is this all there is for me

Here I am again
Look at me again
Here I am again
On my own
Trying hard to see
What there is for me
Here I am again
On my own

Life seems so pathetic
I wish I could leave it all behind

I've looked into the heart of darkness
Where the blood red journey ends
When you've faced the heart of darkness
Even your soul begins to bend

For a week I have been waiting
Still I am only in Saigon
The walls move in a little closer
I feel the jungle call me on

Every minute I get weaker
While in the jungle they grow strong
What I wanted was a mission
And for my sins they gave me one

Sometimes it makes me wonder
Sometimes it makes me question
Sometimes it makes me saddened
Always it makes me angry by...

When you can see it happening
The madness that's all around you
Nobody seems to worry
The World seems so powerless to act...

It's out of control
Blood on the worlds hands
Each day a new toll

Another assasination
The same day a new creation
But what are they coming into

A lonely cry for help reaching out for help to anyone
A silent prayer to God to help you on your way
I've been depressed so long
It's hard to remember when I was happy
I've felt like suicide a dozen times or more
But that's the easy way, that's the selfish way
The hardest part is to get on with your life

You're searching in the dark
cluthching at straws to find a way
You take the tarot cards

Silently to silence fall
In the fields of futile war
Toys if death are spitting lead
Where boys that were our soldiers bled
War horse and war machine

Curse the name of liberty
Marching on as if they should
Mix in the dirt of brothers blood

In the mud and rain
What are we fighting for
Is it worth the pain
Is it worth dying for
Who will take the blame
Why did they make a war

All my dark dreams drift
like smoke in the breeze
The fear grips me as I fall towards my sleep
Here comes the nightmare that never ends
Here is the dream that makes monsters of men

In the house of my soul
In the rooms of ugliness and cold
Memories locked away
All the doubts and fears I never faced

Now they come again
I am falling down to meet with them
Fears within us all

After the war
and now that they've sent us homeward
I can't help but feel that I'm on my own
No one can see
just what this conflict has done to
The minds of the men
who are on their way home

I'm scared for life but
it's not my flesh that's wounded
So how can I face this torment alone
The vivid scenes
and all the recurring nightmares
I lay there and sweat until it gets light...

The freeway is jammed
and it's backed up for miles
The car is an oven and baking is wild
Nothing is ever the way it should be
What we deserve we just don't get you see

A briefcase, a lunch and a man on the edge
Each step gets closer to losing his head
Is someone in heaven are they looking down
Cause nothing is fair just you look around

Falling down
Falling down
Falling down

I don't care for this world anymore
I just want to live my own fantasy
Fate has brought me to these shores
What was meant to be is now happening

I've found that I like this living in danger
Living on the edge it makes feel as one
Who cares now what's right or wrong
it's reality
Killing so we survive
wherever we may roam
Wherever we may hide
we've got to get away

I don't want existence to end

Eleven saintly shrouded men
Silhouettes stand against the sky
One in front with a cross held high
Come to wash my sins away

Standing alone in the wind and rain
Feeling the fear that is growing
Sensing the change in the tide again
Brought by the storm that is brewing
Feel the anxiety hold off the fear
Some of the doubt in the things you believe
Now that your faith will be put to the test