Almost Happy lyrics

I wish you could adore
The way you did before
Now you're living through another year
Oh, the light you were
Will soon become a blur
As you're living through another year
Oh, what a waste of time it is
To indulge inside of bliss
Getting ready for another year like this
Another year to lie
Another year goes by
You're not sick, so you can't heal
But I wonder do you feel

There's something about this day
That feels a lot like yesterday
Everything looks the same:
The wall, the tv set
The way I move around myself to be
Somewhere over there
Where things just seem to grow
Where somebody seems to know
What they want from me
I never felt like I belonged
To anything or anyone
Still I depend on you
For every single thing
I could be wrong about so much, but

No, I know what you said
But that doesn't mean that I understand
And you don't know what I meant by that
But it's sweet that you tried
That you're on my side
If you were my head
You'd know where it hurts
You'd clean up the dirt
If you were my head
I would be heard
As close, as close as we'll get
We touch and it's gone
I must have been wrong when I thought
Everything melts in us

There you are
Your beauty consoles me
I've gone far
And I almost didn't find you
And I almost lived without you
There is nothing in this world
I'd rather do
Than live in you
Here we go,
Our favorite adventure
You should know
I was never more complete
And I never thought I'd see
The meaning of my life
Wrapped in you
Next to me
If you ever fear
Someday we might lose this
Come back here

You turn off the light, kiss me good night
And mother, I know that I'm going to be alright
I just can't wait to grow up
Find my own life, be a good wife
And a smart one, I'm sure
I never took us for granted and I always knew
You and I are special
But I never knew how much I'd miss you
So much has changed and been rearranged
And I see that I've lost
What made me so young and incredibly strong

I was born in a cradle of love.
I had two brothers who beat me up
When I was 7 years old
I had a friend named Tom
And when we were together
I didn't want to go home
When I was 15, I was very confused
I made a bad habit out of breaking the rules
The kitchen window
Was my door to the night
And when I got caught
They made me stay home
I was 20 years old when I met you
And as soon I as saw you

Life has always been a pretty song
And pretty loud
You're so beautiful
Why is it fading out
I don't want to live forever
But as long as I do
I'd love to live for real
Now the boy who dried your tears
Is crying all the time
Now the joy I've had for years
Has left me for a while
I don't want to live forever
But as long as I do
I'd love to live for real
With you I might get there

If I could look beyond your face
And photograph your hidden place
Would I find you smiling in the picture
I don't know what you want
Because you don't know,
So what's the point of asking
You're almost happy
Almost content
But your head hurts
Far too many ways to go
We learn so much but never know
Where to look
Or when we should stop looking
I can love the whole of you.
The poetry I stole from you

Any time tomorrow I will lie and say I'm fine
I'll say yes when I mean no
And any time tomorrow
The sun will cease to shine
There's a shadowman who told me so
Any time tomorrow the rain will play a part
Of a play I used to know
Like no other
Used to know it all by heart
But a shadowman inside has let it go
Oh no, let go of my hand
Oh no, not now I'm down, my friend
You came to me anew

Show me where you found your faith and
Does it help you sleep at night
I am not that complicated
I just need some time
Because it doesn't feel right
And I'm mostly very tired
Life is easy when you fake it
Right until you realize
Your happiness is unrelated
To anything you have inside
And it doesn't feel right
And I'm mostly very tired
Every chance I get to distract myself

Lost in time I can't count the words
Said when I thought they went unheard
All of those harsh thoughts so unkind
'Cos I wanted you

(And) now I sit here I'm all alone
So here sits a fucking mess, tears fly home
A circle of angels, deep in war
'Cos I wanted you

Weak as I am, no tears for you
Weak as I am, no tears for you
Deep is I am, I'm no ones fool
Weak as I am

I feel it too, try not to talk
Try not to think of why we're here
You guide me, hit me
Somewhere inside of me

And no one here to verify
No camera shooting what your eyes say
This way I might forget about today

Ooh how, good how
Wonderful it is
It almost makes me wanna think
There is a reason for all this

I used to be a disbeliever, love was unreal
Just like moviestars and crashing cars

Is there anything you want from me
My arms, my life, my energy
I don't know how far I can go
Everything says no
But you know how it goes when
You're used to your side of the bed
I know you don't belong in this room
But you're here now
So what can I do
All that I am is
All I was taught to be
All that you are is
A wall between myself and me
Have you ever really looked at me

Don't call me sinner
Don't call me nerd
Don't call me chaotic
Because you heard

I have strange feelings
I have weird thoughts
But don't call me an artist
Because I'm not

I am an animal, a saint
A grown up child without a name
I am a black man, I am gay
I say we're basically the same
Don't label me

I'm not a colour
I'm not a sex
I'm not a partner
I'm not an ex

Don't call me nigger

I was feeling awful
And I had too much to drink
And I could only get a bit better
If I just knew what to think

I wanted to caress you
And to hold you in my arms
I wanted you to touch me
While you strangle me with charms

Raise your glass for love
For Julian

I took you to my bedroom
With just one thing to do
And only seconds later
You were me and I was you

And in silence there together

There's a reason so well hidden
Why I was torn apart from you
Like a song I've never written
Like a joke without a clue
No I don't want to close my eyes and think of you

How I'd like to get you back, but He won't let me
How I'd like to sing the songs we knew by heart
Farewell sounds really cheap for pain you left me
And it's growing mushrooms in my heart

Go on my love
I know you must go
But if there were a way
I would keep you home
You'll fight for the tears
In the eyes of our child
As she stares at the hands
Of her brother who died
For our future, our land
Or the freedom to dance
Wherever the music
Might lead us my friends
You died all alone
And I no longer pray
Cause if there were a God
He'd have let you stay
So tomorrow I'll burn

You think you haven't changed
You think I'm being sentimental
You've finally reached that age
Security is fundamental
You think you haven't changed
You think that you're just growing older
You wanted to be safe
But it turned you into someone colder
You're so busy these days
Rearranging your place
Can you still find some space for yourself
You think you haven't changed
Is anyone to blame

Asleep, asleep, I fall asleep
I'm never waking up
I wish I could accept me
But I think I'm giving up

There's so much love and beauty
Yet to come, I am aware
But what about the other things
I can no longer bear

Asleep, asleep, I fall asleep
I'm never waking up

Please, just let me be at peace
I want to feel the peace
I want to be the peace

Asleep, asleep, I fall asleep
I'm never waking up

I have a brother I love more than me
He and his wife had a little baby
He hates sudden noises
He can't stand bright light
I suppose he'd have rather stayed inside

Little man, I wonder, are you happy, are you sad
The one thing I'm sure of you're the smallest man I ever met
And you will see beauty
And you will feel pain
You're the little spark of hope inside my brain

Wij maken een kringetje van jongens en van meisjes
Wij maken een kringetje van tralala
Maak nu een buiging
Maak nu een buiging
Bij de hand
Bij de hand
Pak je ma(a)tje bij de hand
Stop

There are colours on the street
Red, white and blue
People shufflin' their feet
People sleepin' in their shoes
But there's a warnin' sign on the road ahead
There's a lot of people sayin' we'd be better off dead
Don't feel like Satan but I am to them
So I try to forget it anyway I can

Keep on rockin' in the free world
Keep on rockin' in the free world
Keep on rockin' in the free world

Here come old flattop he come grooving up slowly
He got joo-joo eyeball he one holy roller
He got hair down to his knee
Got to be a joker he just do what he please

He wear no shoeshine he got toe-jam football
He got monkey finger he shoot coca-cola
He say 'I know you, you know me'
One thing I can tell you is you got to be free
Come together right now over me

There must be something more I can buy in the store
And I can not ignore the resemblance
With a tune I have heard in a dream that referred
To a beautiful world in which everyone wants

Ooooooooooooooooooooooh

Surprise, surprise, bright light into my eyes
And in the red sky I saw angels fly by
And the angel of death standing next to me said

Hey, Stranger
Would you come in through my door
If not now I'll leave it ajar
And then maybe you could come back
I'll be waiting here for you
I'll be hoping here for you
I'll be praying here that you'll believe it's true
That in all these lonely years
I would have loved your company
But I never could give in
To this fragile side of me
You see I've always been a man of great ambition

Well my time went so quickly, I went lickety-splickly out to my old '55
As I drove away slowly, feeling so holy, God knows, I was feeling alive.

Now the sun's coming up, I'm riding with Lady Luck, freeway cars and trucks,
Stars beginning to fade, and I lead the parade
Just a-wishing I'd stayed a little longer,
Oh, Lord, let me tell you that the feeling's getting stronger.

There's a chair in my head on which I used to sit
Took a pencil and I wrote the following on it

Now there's a key where my wonderful mouth used to be
Dig it up, throw it at me
Dig it up, throw it at me

Where can I run to, where can I hide
Who will I turn to now I'm in a virgin state of mind

Got a knife to disengage the voids that I can't bear
To cut out words I've got written on my chair