Catalyst lyrics

You're hiding something cuz it's burning through your eyes
I try to get it out but all I hear from you are lies
And I can tell you're going through the motions
I figured you were acting out your part
Once again we're playin off emotion
Which one of us will burn until the end?

Catalyst, you insist to pull me down
You contradict the fact that you still want me around

I'm in and out of conversation
It's hard to keep my attention locked down
So don't take offence to anything i say
I tried so hard to keep you coming back my way
But you don't know the half, and I'm the one to blame for it

Cause I'm best known for failure
Best known for giving up
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough
Cause I'm best known for failure (hey)

This letter explains everything
The content it is the truth
Each word could cut like daggers
If I decide to finally give it to you

I've rewrote and rechecked a thousand times
Licked it shut and said my goodbyes
The lines are perfectly written to break wide open
this conclusion

And it feels like I've already been there
Sounds like I'm preaching to the choir
If it looks like it won't work out

I tried to save us
but little did I know
you are a speeding train off track
with little time to go

I tried everything
tried so hard to let you know
but now I'm on my last thread
pulling away to no avail

yeah, now it's our time
and now it's our time
and I'll see you on the other side

beneath your skin
there's another side to you
you build up city walls
so I never get through

What's your problem?
Can't you see it?
And you go and blow it
Like everyone knows you will

Don't leave this rock unturned
'Cause you could like what you find
A sure shot hit
With your name attached to it
Will you keep me in mind?
I won't cast the first stone
Or leave the first mark
But I will leave a lasting impression
You believe what you want
And you said what's been said

I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

Your eyes were covered in sunglasses
when they first met mine
I sat there and stared at you
you didn't seem to mind
The awkward ways we meet

First comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
What will happen next ?
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

I never cared how I dressed before
but I cared that night
Anticipation ran through my bones

Eyes open, I'm wide awake
I feel I'm in a coma state
I'll lay here on my back and watch the fan turn

Conversations cross my mind, but nothing of the speaking kind
TV images repeat there one lines

Back and forth I toss and turn
It feels like strings are holding up my eyes

I'd kill to fall asleep
I'd kill to fall asleep

Putting up a losing fight
I'll never see this end tonight

Don't believe a word,
A word they say.

It's more than a T-shirt,
It's more than a tattoo,
It's more than a phase.
This is how I was raised.

You keep trying to market this feeling.
I heard what you said,
And no were not the same,
No were not the same.

You'll never be a part (of what we have),
You'll never sing a song (that we love),
You'll never get respect,
And you cant fool us

All along, we follow blindly,
Force-fed prime time, printed nightly,
Why would anybody leave the safety of their homes?

I wonder why,
I wonder why,
Only disasters flood the headlines,
Other peoples misery,
Are up for the next three hours,
Commercial free.

And I cant take much more of this,
Were all so wrapped up, in it,
Nothing will change, but the channels,
So I turn it off.

You must not have a heart
Have nothing in your chest
to let it go for so long
and let this go so far
that it goes over your head

You could fool anyone
with your plastic smile
and you could live in your lie
for only a while
and I could only take so much
and I admit this could be love
but it goes over your head

What does she have
can you let go ?
can you tell me

Are you aware of how much you complicate me?
And are you aware your words suffocate me
and dont deny
youre talking behind my back to your friends
and dont deny
one day youll need me, need me

All my life Ive been looking for the answers
to the questions you never asked
and we never planned on this disaster
when will I let it go

So incomplete
Your stare is cold unlike anything Ive ever seen

There was a time and place where I never thought
I'd leave my own hometown
but those days finally are dead and gone
It was never my intention to stay there
Oh no

There was a concious effort played by me
to disown anything I see
There was a girl I knew way back when
who says she doesn't know me anymore

These are the lies, the things you never mention

Don't say it'll stay this way forever

I'm afloat in the ocean trying not to sink
I'm a crack in the asphalt you walk by on the street
I'm a falling star you'll never see
The lash in your eye, the I in team

So Who am I?

Don't say it'll stay this way forever
Don't say it'll stay this way forever

I'm the lesson you'll never learn
The sickness that was never your concern

What do you think inside your head (I wanna know)
So you think that this could end up (breaking you)

Your life is a timebomb set to explode
You talk out your ass and everyone knows
For once you should listen or care what I think
Or I'll be gone before you can blink

Everyones told you over and over again
You're making the biggest mistake of your life
Everyones told you
Everyone you left behind

my life is an open book of changes and this just occured to me
i dream of all these different places that i would rather be i know
that all i want is to be a man who is certain with himself my battles aren't won [2x]
until i'm certain with myself it's hard for me to feel this anymore
where have the feelings gone i need to stop myself from hiding

[Reggie And The Full Effect cover, sung by James Dewees]

Girl, where's your head full of lead?
Can't you see what you're doing to me?
Wipe that disgrace off your face
Look and see what you've done to me
Girl, you look bored
I wish everything about the danger wouldn't make you such a stranger
So what's the deal?
Don't you feel what i'm dealing with?
But it's alright

[Shai Hulud Cover, Performed 4/21/2001 Albany, NY]

Poured myself out:
I am the empty cup
My hope has died away
And my tolerance faded.

How can I keep Stability
On such shaky ground?
Prayers that a smile will flag me down.
Sadly I've learned there's no truth in comfort;
Well-being stems not from love.
Anguish proves to be my only means of solace,
Yet I want to be held by anyone,

you'll never see a straight face from me
i've got a problem showing emotion
and sucking up my guts
you'll never get an answer from me
i always keep it stuck in my head
a million words i could have said

you say you're so overwhelmed with me
and it's because of me

don't you say, you know i heard you said you know
don't you say, you know anything about me

Theres a cold winter coming this year
Theres a cold winter coming
Theres a cold winter coming this year
Theres a cold winter coming

Theres lots of snow and fog this year
Theres lots of snow and fog
Theres lots of snow and fog this year
Theres lots of snow and fog

cold winter coming this year
Theres a cold winter come
cold winter coming this year
Theres a cold winter come

Yeah
I'm on the verge of something good
It's been up my sleeve this whole time, waiting
Yeah
Another condescending tide
I'll just avoid turning completely over
Now I

I can't relate to your constant static
Your lack of remorse is cause for panic
No, I can't relay , I never did
The worst thing was when I let you in
I let you in

Yeah
You might take a second look