#1 - May 23, 2000, Lisbon Portugal, Estadio Do Restelo lyrics

Unsealed on a porch a letter sat.
Then you said, "I wanna leave it again."
Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand. And on the sand I wanna leave it again. Yeah.
On a weekend I wanna wish it all away, yeah.
And they called and I said that "I want what I said" and then I call out again.
And the reason oughta' leave her calm, I know.
I said "I know what I wear not the boxer or the bag."

son, she said
have I got a little story for you
what you thought was your daddy
was nothin' but a....

while you were sittin'
home alone @ age thirteen
your real daddy was dyin'
sorry you didn't see him

but I'm glad we talked...

I...I...I'm still alive [3x]

oh she walks slowly
across a young man's room
she said I'm ready...for you
I can't remember anything
to this very day

please don't go out on me, don't go out on me now
never acted up before, don't go on me now
i swear i never took it for granted, just thought of it now
suppose i abused you, just passing it on
go...fuck...
once fastened, servile, now you're getting sharp
moving oh so swiftly, with such disarm
i pulled the covers over him, shoulda' pulled the alarm
turned to my nemesis...a fool, not a fucking god

there's a girl on a ledge, who's got nowhere to turn
because all the love that she had was just wood that she burned
now her life is on fire, it's no one's concern
she can blame the world...or pray til dawn
but only love...can breakerfall
breakerfall
yeah only love can breakerfall...fall
it's like she's lost the invitation to the party on earth
and she's standing outside hating everyone here

at home
drawing pictures
of mountain tops
with him on top
lemin yellow sun
arms raised in a V
dead lay in pools of maroon below

daddy didn't give attention
to the fact that mommy didn't care
king jeremy the wicked
ruled his world

Jeremy spoke in class today
Jeremy spoke in class today

clearly I remember
pickin' on the boy
seemed a harmless little fuck
but we unleashed a lion
gnashed his teeth

I wish I was a neutron bomb, for once I could go off.
I wish I was a sacrifice, but somehow still lived on.
I wish I was a sentimental ornament you hung on the Christmas tree.
I wish I was the star that went on top.
I wish I was the evidence, I wish I was the clouds.
Or 50 million hands upraised and open toward the sky.

I wish I was a sailor with someone who waited for me.

you guys ready...
alone...listless...breakfast table in an otherwise empty room
young girl...violence...center of her own attention
mother reads aloud, child tries to understand it
tries to make her proud
the shades go down, it's in her head
painted room...can't deny there's something wrong...
don't call me daughter, not fit to
the picture kept will remind me
don't call me daughter, not fit to

vacate is the word...vengeance has no place on me or her
cannot find the comfort in this world
artificial tear...vessel stabbed...next up, volunteers
vulnerable, wisdom can't adhere...
a truant finds home...and a wish to hold on...
but there's a trapdoor in the sun...immortality...
as privileged as a whore...victims in demand for public show
swept out through the cracks beneath the door

Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of plain
Her legs spread out before me as her body holds still
All five horizons revolved around her soul as the earth to the
sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Oooo, and all I taught her was everything
Oooo, I know she gave me yarn() that she wore
And now my bitter hands shake beneath the clouds of what was
everything

Where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She’s gone to heaven, so I’ve got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world

We were out on a date in my daddy’s car
We hadn’t driven very far
There in the road, straight ahead
A car was stalled, the engine was dead

I couldn’t stop, so I swerved to the right
I’ll never forget the sound that night

lives opened and trashed..."look ma, watch me crash"...
no time to question...why'd nothing last...
grasp and hold on...we're dyin' fast...
soon be over...and i will relent...
let the ocean swell, dissolve 'way my past
three days, and maybe longer
won't even know i've left
under your tongue...i'm like a tab...
i will give you what...you're not sposed to have...
under my breath...i swear by sin...

MFC

Sliding out of reverse into drive, this

We will be turning right, then straight
Off in the sunset she'll ride

She can remember a time denied

Stood by the side of the road, spilled like wine now

She's out on her own and I'm high

There's no leaving here

Ask- I'm an ear

She's disappeared

They said that timing was everything

Made him want to be everywhere

there's a light when my baby's in my arms
there's a light when the window shades are drawn
hesitate when i feel i may do harm to her
wash it off cuz this feeling we can share
and i know she's reached my heart, in thin air
byzantine is reflected in our pond
there's a cloud but the water remains calm
reaching in, the sun's fingers clutch the dawn to pass
even out, it's a precious thing to bear

the sirens scream wanton attention
time to take heed and change direction
time to take stock and make omissions
evacuation
evacuation
time to take leave of formal functions
time to plant seeds of reconstruction
more time, this time, to feign reluctance
it's like you're waiting for a diamond shore to wash your way
bets put aside, you're evil
let's crawl into your face

waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
as he opens the door, she rolls over...
pretends to sleep as he looks her over
she lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
she dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
can't find a better man
can't find a better man
ohh...

oh he deals em off, off the top, ties em off
fills it up, with his past, gets carried away
oh half his life, a hand me down, wasted away
of he fills it up, with the love, of a girl
oh he left it alone, drilled the pain, with money to buy
how he makes his getaway
how he makes his getaway
oh he chose a path, heavy the fall, quarter to four
fills his night, with the thought, of a girl

Got a car. I got some gas.
Oh, let's get out of here. Get out of here fast.
Ah, everyone's confused so I stay in my room.
If I go, I don't want to go alone.
I hope you got this message. Oh, your not home.
I could be there in ten minutes, or so.
Oh, I got my things.
We'll make it up as we go along.
Oh, with you I could never be alone.
Never be alone.

One, two, three, four, five against one.
Five, five, five against one.
Said one, two, three, four, five against one.
Five, five... Five, five... Five against...

Torture from you to me. Yeah. Ah.
Abducted from the street. Umm.

I'd rather be.
I'd rather be with.
I'd rather be with an animal. Oh. Rah.

Why would you wanna hurt me? Oh...
Ooh, so frightened of your pain. Yeah. Ooh.

I'd rather be.

the waiting drove me mad...you're finally here and i'm a mess
i take your entrance back...can't let you roam inside my head
i don't want to take what you can give...
i would rather starve than eat your bread...
i would rather run but i can't walk...
guess i'll lie alone just like before...
i'll take the varmint's path...oh, and i must refuse your test

i've used hammers made out of wood
i have played games with pieces and rules
i undeciphered tricks at the bar
but now you're gone, i haven't figured out why
i've come up with riddles and jokes about war
i've figured out numbers and what they're for
i've understood feelings and i've understood words
but how could you be taken away
and wherever you've gone
and wherever we might go

He could have tuned in, tuned in, but he tuned out.
A bad time nothing could save him.
Alone in a corridor, waiting, locked out.
He got up outta there ran for hundreds of miles.
He made it to the ocean, had a smoke in a tree.
The wind rose up set him down on his knee.
A wave came crashing like a fist to the jaw.
Deliver him wings, "Hey look at me now!"
Arms wide open with the sea as his floor.

Plaque on the wall says that, "No one's slept here."
It's rare to come upon a bridge that has not been around, or been stepped on.
Whatever the notion we lace in our prayers, the man upstairs is used to all of this noise.
I'm through with screaming.

It echoes. Nobody hears, it goes, it goes, it goes.
Like echoes. Nobody hears, it goes, it goes, it goes, like this.

Wooh, wooh.
I'm ahead. I'm a man.
I'm the first mammal to wear pants. Yeah.
I am at peace with my lust.
I can kill cause in god I trust. Yeah.
It's evolution baby. Yeah.

I'm a piece of the man.
I buy stocks on the day of the crash. Yeah.
On the loose. I'm a truck.
All the rolling hills I'll flatten 'em out. Yeah.
It's herd behavior. Uh huh.
It's evolution baby. Yeah. Oh yeah.

watched from the window, with a red mosquito
i was not allowed to leave the room
i saw the sun go down, and now it's coming up
somewhere in the time between
i was bitten, must have been the devil
he was just paying me...
a little visit, reminding me of his presence
letting me know, he's a-waiting... oh
red man's your neighbor, call it behavior
while you're climbing up slippery hills

have a drink they're buying
bottom of, bottle of denial
big guy, big eye, watchin me
have to wonder what it sees
(sin...)
progress laced with ramifications
freedom's big plunge
pull the innocent from a crowd
raise the sticks then bring em down
if they fail to obey
oh if they fail to obey
for every tool they lend us
a loss of independence
i pledge my grievance to the flag

don't feel like home, he's a little out...
and all these words elope, it's nothing like your poem
putting in, inputting in, don't feel like methadone
a scratching voice all alone, there's nothing like your baritone
it's nothing as it seems, the little that he needs, it's home
the little that he sees, is nothing he concedes, it's home
one uninvited chromosome, a blanket like the ozone

Freezin', rests his head on a pillow made of concrete, again
Oh, Feelin' maybe he'll see a little betters any days
Oh, head down, faces that he sees don't look it ain't that
familiar
Oh, girlfriend he can't have when he's happy looks insane, oh
yeah

Even flow
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know
so he chases them away
someday yet he'll begin his life again
Life againn