Under The Boards lyrics

I come before you wake
Watching while I wait
There's only one thing left for me to say,
"Tomorrow never come home gotta let go all that you know
You'll never make it out alive unless you go"

No more warning signs
No more shallow lies
I'll dream of you from hell
My love goodbye

I'm fetching all of the rope
Gonna tie you onto this post
You'll never make it out alive
And now you know

Bye bye, babydoll
You know I'm never coming home
For any reason I should call
Don't pick up the phone

Just know
I'll love you from afar, and that is all.
You know as well as I we're both alone.

So bye bye, baby
Our love can't save me
So bye bye, baby
Bye bye, babydoll
There's letters littering the lawn
The police in the parking lot
Every time I wake, you go

Go if you wanna go
Dont wanna lie here while you cry yourself to sleep
And say what you wanna say
Cause I can see by your face that somethings not the same

Hey, hey everythings okay
I love you more than I can say
But we cant stay the same
Yeah!

Do what you wanna do
Dont wanna keep you here holding so tight you cant breathe
And stay not a minutes stay

Watching the moon moving to the ocean floor
Standing on the neighbor's lawn
It's four am on Friday
All night long I'm dreaming of your loving arms
I'm staring at the fading stars
And waiting for your call

But every time I think about you
I get fucked up
I feel like all the stars are falling
Inside my heart
Inside my heart

Gone are the days
Staring through the window pane

I don't need nobody, not at all
'Cause I'm going to end it all in the light at the break of dawn
And I don't why or what went wrong
I'm tired of trying to pretend to believe that I can go on

The pain won't let me get away
And now I know we'll never be the same
I don't want to live, not another day
I don't want to live this way
I said the pain won't let me get away

I wake up knowing that you're gone
The letter left inside the drawer
I stare through the window, window

Why would I ever say
Those words I cannot erase?
The look I saw come on your face
Is frozen there each time I blink
It's my kaleidoscope of pain

Why would I ever say
Those words I cannot erase?

I'll never know
If you're ever going to come back home
So I'll give in

I guess I wrote this song
To hear you singing along
Remember all those times
Laughing so hard we would cry

So many lonely nights
So many lonely nights
I hoped you'd call
Stare at the wall
Why do shadows crawl
All along the floor
I hoped you'd call
And that is all

I can say in this song
Time we were moving along
Remember all those days
Staring through the window pane

So many lonely nights

Hearing the words as they're leaving my mouth
I can't believe myself
Trying to be what you want me to be
I guess I can't catch up

Once in awhile, making you smile
by singing with the radio
You're singing with the radio

Staring into space like I'm not even there
I swear I'm not alone
You make me think that I live with a ghost
But my love still grows

Once in awhile, making you smile

I'll go walking around in the dark of the day.
Right when everything's quiet, see stars as they change.
Trees sway, sag to the street drinkin' puddles of rain.
Right on the corner of your old street where we once stayed.

Seem so quiet..
Can't hear nothing now.. but..

Once there was music that swam in the air.
Crazy laughing at dishes that smash in the sink.

So now I'm stuck under the boards
No room to run, not anymore
I'm left to die here all alone
Or choose to live now on my own

I reach my hand above the ground
Feel for a root to pull me out
Now there is nothing I can do
I'm turning over in my tomb
I'm turning over in my tomb

When I get my feet on the ground
I notice there ain't no one around
Everybody, go home
To hope to hide the dead ghosts

I want to crawl into the ground and not come out
For 37 years, when my life runs out
A demon in my mouth that spits words out
Let everybody hate me, make me kill myself

I want to lie below the weight of the sky

And then I'll rise above the earth in a hurricane
Spun into the wind with the whirling rain
Reach into the top of a blackened sky
Screaming as I fall to the earth to die

All night long, ghosts with snakes
Stare at the ceiling as if there was somebody there

I start to wonder
What's he do when I'm not there
'Cause I've been calling,
But I stopped hearing from my friends
Did you think I'd forget?

Twist my words every time
Lie all along and you know I won't know it's a lie
And I remember what you said when I was there
It never happened like the way you said it did

Where am I?
I've never been myself
Lived for someone else
In the dark I dig into my flesh
I'm calling out, I'm calling out
I'm crying out for my death

I cry in woe

Why am I even here?
Everyone would be better without me
The sun is shining over city streets
But in my heart the dark is dwelling
It's all that I see

I cry in woe

Until I fall under a moving train
I live my life alone in pain