Dysfunction lyrics

I feel nothing
Longing for something
Lie in bed to take your clothes off
Show me what you're made of
Drugs to soothe me

(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate

I'm not gifted
Slightly twisted
Try hard try hard
To see if I can push you any further
Drugs to soothe me

(All alone)

I'm kinda numb
It's so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
I've fucked up places
In my memories none of them I've lost, but...

I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.

It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty

I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means
I guess my mother never loved my dad
And now I wear it on my sleeve

My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice
My problem is I don't have much to say
I guess she doesn't have a choice, and I'm sorry

Look at me I'm so pathetic
I can't believe I'm just an addict

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The pictures left with me won't fade
These images affect me every day
Cause of you I feel I don't deserve
The life I see in her

Just don't leave me
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Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold

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I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go
Finally did something right for myself
My life to you no one else

Just don't leave me
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Mudshovel

You take away
I feel the same

You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me you made in vain
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again

Cause you can't feel my ANGER
You can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again

I feel betrayed

I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything

I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home

Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend

Trust In me can't trust
I know, I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
what for, you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
so loud, why can't you hear it

I'm OK

All my faith is gone
you think I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down
shattered, nothing behind it
In my mind alone,
Lost here I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole

I'm so lonely
You're so beautiful
Not the only
One that's pitiful

Scratched and torn I lay here in pieces
Craving all of your deadly vices
Like to think that I'm not addicted
But I guess I wear it well

And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through you

Here I am now
Not a lot has changed
Nothing' better
Everything's the same

Late at night I can hear your voices

Can't breathe!
Shut up [2x]

I feel I give everything to you

Can't breathe!
Shut up [2x]

I think there's nothing left to do

Can't breathe!
Shut up [2x]

I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say - I don't want you

Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say - I don't need you

I don't look like you, do the things you do

Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them
To you

And I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdom
From you

And I'm eaten alive by what I hold inside
All the things that I live with I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you

It's not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
Until I'm not alive

Well I know the words
But I can't really speak them
to you

And I hide all the pain
That I've gained with my wisdom
from you

And I'm eaten alive
By what I hold inside
All the things that I live with
I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing
Nothing to live for
But you

It's not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry it with me
Until I'm not alive

When you look at my face